Using pigments made from the artist's mother's garden soil, mushroom dust, annatto seeds, and soil from a broken prayer bead from Karbala, this diptych looks at prayer as a site of study. The repetitions in a cycle of prayer and the material significance of the gestures allow the body to process catastrophe, a place for grief to rest. This work has parallels in the work laments for blackened hearts citing overlaps between gestures of faith and gestures of grief. Each pigment holds its own history, memory and weight. Annatto from Curaçao that was imported from Latin America, mushroom dust collected from dead trunks of Elm trees, soil from a mother’s potted plants and soil carrying historic memory in a broken tasbeeh (prayer beads) from Karbala.